What Is This Feeling?: Beta

Said dude hit me up today via chat.

We had good conversation, although I was somewhat a mess and wasn't as coherent as I'd like, due to my intense level of excitement for him and interest in what he was up to.

Hopefully this story continues . . . but for now, I'm feeling good, feeling great!


Audiogasm of the moment: Dance - Danny Brown

What Is This Feeling?

Two posts back to back?? Shit's getting crazy, haha.

I've been in a funk lately, which may in fact be due to a little something something that I HOPE is just a figment of my imagination and a sick joke played on me by my body.

I digress.

However, a second feeling is one of longing. A way that I haven't felt in a very long time, probably since sophomore year.

Can you be so mentally and physically attracted to someone who you've only spoken to privately for about 15 minutes? Can you?!

I never thought so. Until it happened to me. And now, I think about him almost every day. At my internship, on the train, waiting in line at the grocery store, during my workouts. It's crazy. I'm crazy.

He's a bit older. And currently lives many miles away. And hopefully has no idea.

Favorable qualities: introverted, thoughtful, funny, soothing, playful, body's a little thick. (Mind you this is based off a 15 minute interaction. CRAZY)

I was just so satisfied after that 15-minute conversation. Intellectually, musically, emotionally calm. I didn't realize it until this summer, and now I have an insatiable thirst to get to know him better.

I usually have gut feelings when I meet people, and they're usually true. But never have I experienced anything like this. I know it's not love at first sight, but it's much more than lust. What is it?